Well..

I was actually in bed, all tired, planning to go to sleep early a few mins ago. But why am i still up? Well, it's the whole emo thingy going on again, hahax.. "AGAIN!", you might screamed, lolx, well yes, again. My family and some of my friends actually tried talking to me, saying they have realise that i have become easily emotional. They said they miss that bubbly, happy-go-lucky girl they used to see. I was like, "awww~". I missed her too, but i just can't seems to return back to that state somehow..

I'm aware that after the breakup with my ex (somehow i still find it hard to use the title as ex), i'd become very sensitive. Sensitive as in, i'm afraid of losing things. The more i'm afraid of losing things, the more paranoid i get, and the most paranoid i get, the more emo i become. I tried to put a happy face in front of others but i find it ended me up getting all tired.

I reminded myself many times, "if you can't put down the thing that's obstructing you from getting on with life, you're just gonna get stuck here forever." So choose it, let go and carry on with life, or, stay and cry! Well, i can tell you it's definitely easier said than done. LOL.

Earlier, when i was in bed, i feel the weather is turning colder and i felt cold. So, i hid under my blanket. It was dark in that. Dark but warm and comfy. That immediately send a chill down my spine. It was in the dark that i felt the presence of him. As though, the warm sensation under the blanket was given off by his body when he's near me. I started reminiscing about the past. You can never understand that kind of feeling unless you'd experience the same thing.. The feeling hurts but yet, it gives you some comfort through the cold nights.

I don't want to say i miss him but i know i do. I don't even wanna say i love him but i know i can't deny. I don't wanna hid under those blanket which seems to have his presence, but i know i wanted so badly to feel him there.

*Off*

Alexis Grace
Jun Jun [called by my family members only since young]
2 December 1989
I'm living in my own world. I'm a lazy, evil-mouth (changing in process), and emotional person.


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Hello. Grace Here. I'm 19 this year. I love dancing, singing, and gossiping, and i hate studying. I'm always making contradiction about life and stuff. So once again, welcome to my blog and if any of my entry pisses you off, or perhaps, i am the one who pisses you off, then make this the last time you come to the blog. You can still choose to come though. Aiya, anything lah (T.T)
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