Went to 2359 with BaBa (Suba) and friends. It was my first visit and overall not that bad, just that most were not my race. That was not a problem though cause i enjoyed myself. Had a couple of drinks and dance till morning then cab home with BaBa.









The thing i'm eating right now:






I'm glad my mum looks better now. I mean, she still grieved over the fact that her husband left the family, but the time seems to be getting shorter. I think we don't need a dad much to the fact we're still surviving without him. I used to think that i can't live without my dad, but look, i'm still tough standing. That probably shows his existance in the family.

I hate him. I hate him lying. I hate him cheating. I hate him for leaving the house. I love him.

Contradicting eh? I thought so too. Woman.

Anyway, my grandma (maternal side) came over this morning. She brought us some home cooked bee hoon, and had some chit chatting session with my mum.

My grandma is the strongest woman i've ever seen by the way, despite the fact that she can stand physical pain (she had a heart operation before without using anesthatic *spell wrongly*). Her husband, my grandpa, used to be a casonava too when he was young and she can still walk through it without committing suicide (refering to my mum if you can see what i mean). And when my grandpa gets old, having stroke and stuff and she can still take really good care of him.. For love? I doubt so. For that generation, i guess no one talks about love. Responsibility is more like it? Possibly.

Anyway, we used to celebrate Chinese New Year over at my gran's place but we thought of doing something different. We'll be asking everyone to our house. Not that it's something different, somewhere different is more like it. I hope the New Year ambience will wiped away all those dark clouds, ha..

*Chao*


Didn't take the photos of the house before the cleaning but now it's like this:











Like what Pei Bing said, life is fragile. My grandpa is in the hospital because he had stroke again. It seems rather serious this time round and grandma and us were all worried.

The uncle who lived next door passed away yesterday morning and the funeral is being set up already. I heard he had been ok, but suddenly he just pass away. Life really is fragile and we ought to cherish the ones still alive.

My dad is still not back. Though i miss him, i do pity my mum as his wife.. My mum definitely misses him more than us. Blame it on him being a bad husband. I guess he's never gonna be back, on long term.

Just finish cleaning up the house together with the help of my sis. I simply adore her lah. Now the house is clean. We even shifted some of the furniture. Hope mum is happy to see the new image of the house when she's back from the hospital. Yup, that's about it.

*OFF*






My dad left us. Left the family. I don't mean that he's dead, he's just gone.

Dad and mum had a fight again on 7th Jan night. Mum tried to commit suicide, again. Police came. Dad packed his stuff. And left..

On 12th Jan. Just passed midnight. I got a message and find out it's dad.

Dad: Sleep already? Everyone ok?

Me: ok ( i was still pissed with him for what happened )

Dad: I'm flying tonight. Take Care.

Me: Where are you going? ( i was shocked )

Dad: Shanghai Pudong.

Me: When will you be back? ( i was crying at the point )

Dad: Not sure.

Me: How can we contact you then? Through e-mail?

Dad: Ok. Love you all.

Me: We love you also.. Do take care of yourself.. There will be cold so wear more.. Do keep in contact..

Dad: Goodbye baby and be more patient to everyone beside you. You're the eldest.

Me: Daddy i miss you.. I will take care of mummy, pauline and alvin.

Dad: I gonna go bye!

Me: Bye bye. Remember to check your e-mail. I'll e-mail you.

(There's was no reply and i knew he's gone..)

I knew i cannot tell my mum about this cause she'll probably go mad. I only told my sis about this. We both were crying like hell cause we know that no matter what our dad did wrong, we still love him a lot.

I miss my dad. I feel guilty in front of my mum for not telling her. But this is probably best for her. Sometimes being kept in the dark is better.

I wonder how my dad is doing.. He's probably in Shanghai now. Focusing on his business i hope. I wanna hug my dad so tight and not letting him go.

I miss you daddy~


i'd learnt to not bother about how people think of me. Well, at least for now.

Mirror reflects only the exterior. Maybe that explains how people only see us. The exterior. The image of one. I find it hard, now, to voice out how i felt about things. I prefer writing. Well, it's hard to be ignorant about what people think of you. Maybe you did do something terrible in the past. Like me for example, i used to hurt some of my closest friends, and ended up, both parties were hurt. And, it'll definitely lead people having bad impression on one. But it's how you continue life after that.

So, my advice to myself now is, 'never to do things i'll regret and/or hurt others again'. Well, i definitely need some control over my language and the bad habit that's been there since young. Some habits are good, but bad ones definitely have to be stop. The term 'habit' meaning you'd been used to doing something, and with that, changing itself takes time. (Won't take long obviously. Just need some time.)

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I have a breakout. And god, a really serious one. In fact, i shouldn't even be using "a" since my whole face is being "acnerised". (grace's dictionary: acnerised literally means a face covered with acne). Credits to all the heaty food, lack of water, sleep, and essential nutrients. Whenever i see an acne on my face, first reaction = annoyed, secondly = squeeze it. And before i could realise, my whole face is a disaster. I think the germs spread across the face or something. Damn.. (T_T)

Every morning wake up to find the affected area a little swollen then go squeeze and squeeze and squeeze.. Aiyo, i wanna faint *dizzy*


Great. I just sprained my elbow a few mins ago. Even so, i'll still update my blog. (T_T)

Helped my brother cut and dye his hair today cause he was asked to go back home to get his hair coloured back to black and hair shorten by the Discipline Master or whoever. I still haven't work and that means i cannot hang out much, not to mention shopping too..

I wanna work but i don't wanna travel far cause the trip will be very tiring! Maybe i should just find a part time job, lolx. Feel like working as escorts for Sentosa but i'd checked and there's no vancancy for it at the moment. Damn.

Thinking of what to do tomorrow.. *sighed* I miss the fun days~

*OFF*


Initially, i was going DBL O to party with Michelle and friends but, i had promise to countdown with my sis and friends. So eventually, i cancelled the clubbing trip. I had fun though with my girls and Nicholas, hahax. (The guy always "satay" here and there) (T_T)"'

Well, we went to countdown and Wan Zhen's place. Noei was barking like hell when we arrived. The dog is so cute, it barks and was trying to bite us when we stand up. Pauline got a bite from it, lolx. We ordered pizzas and Wan Zhen's sis was so sweet enough to pay for it! So yup, we took some photos that night.

Take 1 (angle was wrong)

Take 3 (forgot to press timer) *Sis was sitting like mermaid like that* T_T

Take 4 (try so hard to adjest but the angle is still somewhat not good enough)

Take 5

Take 7

The two is forever fighting T_T

Pauline & Li Ting (^-^)

Alexis Grace
Jun Jun [called by my family members only since young]
2 December 1989
I'm living in my own world. I'm a lazy, evil-mouth (changing in process), and emotional person.


Foods : No preference so long as its edible
Movies : Horror & Comedy
Idols : BoA

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Hello. Grace Here. I'm 19 this year. I love dancing, singing, and gossiping, and i hate studying. I'm always making contradiction about life and stuff. So once again, welcome to my blog and if any of my entry pisses you off, or perhaps, i am the one who pisses you off, then make this the last time you come to the blog. You can still choose to come though. Aiya, anything lah (T.T)
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