Just came back home awhile ago.

MOS was alright. All the way until i went toilet and saw someone i knew before. After that super depress and down the tequila shot and went to toilet. Went inside the cubicle, sit there and cry for what seems to be less than 2 min, wiped my tears and come out again. Dora was really sweet though and i love her so much for that!

I am gonna be alright.


MOS tonight with Dora, Wayne and Issac. Not confirm if Issac's coming though.

*Jaa Ne*


I Love Tila Tequila. She have the hottest body that all girls envy though she may be a bitch. That's what she said, hah. I don't think she sing that well but she can dance. You ought to check her out in youtube or her blog.


Forgot to update something.

My dad was back on Valentine's. He bought my mom a bouquet of flower and a diamond necklace. After he left, my mom cried away. I don't know why he's doing this, for guilt? I just know that it makes my mom worst.. I guess she's even more confused..

Damn.. I wish he's never back..


Well well, life's been pretty cool for me lately. I mean, seldom do i get bored as the list of people to hang out with seems to get longer and longer. And i'm really glad about that, thinking of what state i was in a few months back. I guess life's getting better ever since. I'm trying to get myself back together.



Yesterday


So yup, we went to gran's place yesterday. Grandma's been sick so we went there to check her out and allow my mom some chit chatting session (though my mom's seems to be chatting on the phone with her almost everyday..)

Went to catch the movie 'Jumper' with Wayne. It was a kickass movie man! I mean, all the teleportation here and there is just so cool! I still laugh at the thought of where the jumper dump that white hair dude, hahahah~ I wonder if there's really jumper in the world. They can be at North Pole and South Pole in the spilt of probably 5 sec? COOOOOL!

I cried that night. It hurts, again.
I made a promise not to fall in love.
I made a promise not to ever cry for a guy again.
I hate myself.

Others may not understand how i felt.
Why i do not accept another relationship.
How can i trust again when i had been hurt once and my dad is a player himself.
I always see my mum crying.
I don't wanna be in her shoe.

I'm just protecting myself.
Is that wrong.
I meant every word and action i said and did, but to you, it all seems fake.
It hurts.
And that's probably all i can say..


Many asked me, "are you moving on with life?".
My answer was, "i am moving on."
"No, you're not."
"Yes, i am!"

I'd always told my friends that i'm moving on. My love life that is. But i'm not. Probably because i was hurt once and lead me to having phobia of relationship. That probably explains why i give up on many chances of actually having a new start. Many good ones that is.

I give up when it felt too good to be real. I give up when i think about the past. I give up when i saw so many bad relationships my friends are having. I totally give up.

You know, i thought i can move on but i can't. I seem to be stuck at the spot where i was hurt real badly. I don't want no tears. I don't wanna wake up in the middle of the night crying. I don't wanna just have my blanket and pillow with me.

When can i walk out of that 'place'? That 'place' that inside my heart where i was trapped. I'm really afraid to accept any relationship and i know it. Maybe i should try? But i can't. I mean i do consider accepting some relationship i thought were worth a try, but in the end, i am still too afraid to take that final step to say 'Yes' to even one.

Why is it so hard for me and seems so easy for others. Why me? Why..

P.S I Love You.


Will be going out later with Pei Xuan to buy her valentine gift for her boy. I still love Valentine Day even if i'm not attached, i mean, it's a day of love. Shower your love ones with all your love. It ought to be a day of love for both single and attached.

Watch the movie 'A Walk To Remember' again yesterday night with my sis. You'll never get sick of it. It's really the most romantic and touching movie i'd ever seen. It was originally from a novel by Nicholas Sparks. And the love quotes inside the movie is so meaningful and inspiring.

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense and is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.

Mandy Moore really did a good job in casting as Jamie in the movie. Innocent and Pure. Another romance movie is coming up if you'd heard of. Also based on the novel, it is call 'P.S I love You' by Cecilia Adhern. The novel itself made me cry like hell. I was like sniffing and reading, put the book down, grab a tissue, grab the book up and continue reading. This continues from the beginning of the novel to the very end. Great Novel. Definitely going to watch it.


Here's the trailer for the movie 'A Walk to Remember'. Enjoy it.






Meet up with Wayne for movie yesterday. He's really a damn talented guy as far as i'm concern. Did his own production of music and you should really hear those rapping song he did. I have to admit it's hard not to get impress, so i was, pretty amazed and impressed.

We went for the movie 'Ah Long Pte Ltd'. It's another great production from Jack Neo. I mean, the movie he does is getting better and better, hah. Initially i thought this kinda local movie isn't what Wayne will be keen in watching, but i wanted so badly to watch that movie, so yeah, we went for it. He wanted to watch CJ7 though. BLEAH! XD

Like i said, the movie's great. We both were, hey, in fact all of the audience were laughing hilariously at many parts of the movie. Take for example, the scene on the nuptial night when Mark tried to "make love" with Fann and tried all sorts of way, LOL. And also, the scene whereby they were being hunt by some 3 guys were funny too. The urine part especially, if you have already watched the show that is, you're know what i'm refering to.

Anyway, after the movie we went for some drinks and some chatting session. Get to know how he's been living his life before i even get to know him, and it was really warming for someone to share something so personal to me. I mean, i love to get to know people and hear their stories. But i didn't share much about mine cause i didn't know where to start and probably don't even know what to say about myself. Thus, i always hate introduction. So yeah, i'm all ears to hearing him most of the time.

He's really a funny dude, i mean, he can make me laugh. There's probably the key i'm looking for in a bud (buddy). So yeah, we talked about everything under the moon! Hah. Will meet bud up for more movie trips in future since he's a movie fanatic. (^-^)

Chao.


I'm just a simple girl.
Doing simple things.
Living in a simple world.
Dreaming for simple love.
With a simple guy.


Relatives visit us at our place today. Set up the gambling den again cause that's what New Year seems to be about. Mummy & I lost quite a big sum of money, but like what she said: "Aiya, once a year only lah, nvm, nvm". But for me, the big hole in my pocket really bleeds, haha.

Heck that. We had a feast for dinner with the big family though. Caught some photos:

*Lao Ah Lao Ah*

Sharkfin Soup

Ginseng Chicken

What's the name of the fish.. Whatever, dead fish shall be its name then!

Beancurd

Dessert

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

[Chorus]
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothings greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

[Chorus]

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

[Chorus]


New Year was indeed the same; boring. Visited only my maternal side of the family because there was some conflict with the paternal side. So yeah, less visit meaning less ang bao. But heck that.

Did i mention i was a sucker for gambling. Every year i will CONFIRM lose money, it's only a matter of losing more/less. But this year i won! It's not a bad year afterall i guess! (^__^) Initially i lost so much, after a while i start winning back the "capital" and then had some "profit" too, hah. Sounds all mathematics right XD

I changed the song to Leona Lewis. Her vocal super power if you can just type her name on youtube and see her videos. Find her familiar? She's the winner for X Factor! I was waiting for her album and now it's finally out, hah. This song "Bleeding Love" made it to the Top 10, wohooo~ Heee

Chao.


Woke up super early today for no specific reason. Been so long since i had last seen the morning sun; always wake up to find that damn afternoon sun shining straight into my room. Actually, i love waking up in the morning. It makes me feel good for a start of the day.

By the way, i'm starting to love the Foo Fighter(s?). Saw them on the MTV and start to gain liking for their songs. Rockers indeed, and i seems to favor the lead singer alot, Ha. Maybe because he got a cock face lah. Everytime i see his face, i will start laughing *laugh hilariously*

I shall get some breakfast.

Chao.


Baba dropped by my house just now cause she was bored. I was bored too. So yup, we had dinner and watch horror and comedy movie. After that, she left. And i'm back alone.

If you're aware, i'd change the blog skin. This one look more "happy" isn't it? The previous one looks all emo and stuff, so yup, changed it. (^-^)

Couldn't make it for the Sheesha trip with Pei Bing & Nara the other time cause gotta buy those new year stuff over to my grans.. Oughtta meet them out sometime!

Chao.


Know the pervert guy who is always roaming around bukit panjang? Well, i saw him many times in Sheng Shiong and he's always so creepy. Decided to take some of his pic (T.T)








Was helping my sis to dye her hair back to black the other day. Caught some pics:

Alexis Grace
Jun Jun [called by my family members only since young]
2 December 1989
I'm living in my own world. I'm a lazy, evil-mouth (changing in process), and emotional person.


Foods : No preference so long as its edible
Movies : Horror & Comedy
Idols : BoA

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Hello. Grace Here. I'm 19 this year. I love dancing, singing, and gossiping, and i hate studying. I'm always making contradiction about life and stuff. So once again, welcome to my blog and if any of my entry pisses you off, or perhaps, i am the one who pisses you off, then make this the last time you come to the blog. You can still choose to come though. Aiya, anything lah (T.T)
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