Many asked me, "are you moving on with life?".
My answer was, "i am moving on."
"No, you're not."
"Yes, i am!"

I'd always told my friends that i'm moving on. My love life that is. But i'm not. Probably because i was hurt once and lead me to having phobia of relationship. That probably explains why i give up on many chances of actually having a new start. Many good ones that is.

I give up when it felt too good to be real. I give up when i think about the past. I give up when i saw so many bad relationships my friends are having. I totally give up.

You know, i thought i can move on but i can't. I seem to be stuck at the spot where i was hurt real badly. I don't want no tears. I don't wanna wake up in the middle of the night crying. I don't wanna just have my blanket and pillow with me.

When can i walk out of that 'place'? That 'place' that inside my heart where i was trapped. I'm really afraid to accept any relationship and i know it. Maybe i should try? But i can't. I mean i do consider accepting some relationship i thought were worth a try, but in the end, i am still too afraid to take that final step to say 'Yes' to even one.

Why is it so hard for me and seems so easy for others. Why me? Why..

P.S I Love You.

Alexis Grace
Jun Jun [called by my family members only since young]
2 December 1989
I'm living in my own world. I'm a lazy, evil-mouth (changing in process), and emotional person.


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Hello. Grace Here. I'm 19 this year. I love dancing, singing, and gossiping, and i hate studying. I'm always making contradiction about life and stuff. So once again, welcome to my blog and if any of my entry pisses you off, or perhaps, i am the one who pisses you off, then make this the last time you come to the blog. You can still choose to come though. Aiya, anything lah (T.T)
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